thelled her "rachel" in book. and she was working very hard. she was at her mother's place cooking dinner, and she was in a real hurry, because she had to finish by 5:00, when her brother was going to arrive with his family, and he didn't like her. he didn't want to be at the dinner. so she had to finish the dinner and leave before he arrived. and i asked her, "are you serious? you're making dinner for a family that you're not going to take part in yourself? why? " and she said, "well, because the family should be together for rosh hashanah, shouldn't they?" well, she never finished the meal. her body said no. she came down with severe inflammation in all her joints, and she was rushed to the hospital with her first malignant outbreak of rheumatoid arthritis. and that self-suppression is typical for people that develop rheumatoid arthritis. it's also typical for people that develop als, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. i talk about the example of lou gehrig, if i may tell you about that. lou gehrig was this great baseball player, a teammate of ba